whistler:

"knowing something, seeing the truth of something, and doing nothing with that knowledge.  it's no way to live."

Everything about "civilization" makes it easy to trudge in a circle, slowly turning the grindstone, while making it difficult to choose your own course and make your way by your own path, under your own power.

Yes, the world is against you -- not personally (that's paranoia), but because you are asserting that your time and effort are no longer a profit center for others.  Social conformity is very profitable for whose who benefit from the status quo.  Don't underestimate the forces arrayed against you.

That being said, the survival of the hunter is dependent on their ability to successfully hunt every few days.  Hunters don't get a regular paycheck just for showing up and not getting fired.  They can't just 'phone it in'.  As Aidan asked, "How do you live with death so close, right there, every day?" 

Fortunately, we can take advantage of many of the structures of civilization (e.g. bank accounts) without necessarily working 8-5 for The Man. 

Welcome home.

JS

PS: To make a floor desk, I'd go to a thrift store, buy a wooden table for cheap, and cut the legs down.  You can also make one: most lumber stores will cut plywood, MDF, or even laminate-coated MDF to a size you specify for a few bucks.  A few short 4x4s or some 3" PVC pipe will serve as legs.